4–For Elisa

For me when i heard of the tragic end for Elisa Lam, it was a tipping point. I couldnt let it go. It kept resurfacing
in my mind for weeks. The are millions of others and many i have known that also

Essentially this project is for all those who have passed on. In many cases not by choice. Its for my father, Joseph connelly. My
college friend Melody H, Its for Krystle Campbell, Martin Richard ,Lu Lingzi , Sandy Hook victims, Sewol ferry victims, Brian Douglas Wells.
Like others i hope they are at peace now. But the passing did not sound pleasant. I really think all of us
deserve much better.

Of all those victims to lifes unexpected end, Elisa Lam was the one that was the tipping point for me.
Her passing was tragic, sad and bizarre. I wont go into all the strange details. It doesnt matter much now.

I found out about it after reluctantly clicking on a link in youtube to strange disapearances or something. In the back of my
mind I knew i was asking for trouble. sure enough i heard her story and was shaken , stirred , creeped out. But also
felt extremely sad for her.

For over three weeks, i have had the thought of her passing in my head somewhere. I dont think its a romantic longing
though i do really like petite asian woman. But there was some sort of kinship. Maybe its because i have trouble
being close to those near me and she is a surrogate. Regardless in a sense i am mourning for Elisa Lam. Yet since its been
over three weeks i feel i am going to have to let her go. Get back to things.

At this point i guess i have several options: 1) accept and deal with it as part of life 2)hope that there is some
pleasant afterlife where she is much happier. 3)presume that her spirit transcended this plane and merged with the infinite.

Option 2 sounds good but more and more seems unlikely. Option 3 may be close but it is still really an unknown. From this side
all we notice is people die and then they are gone. nothing there at all.

It is much like when they finally found her. They found her body but it was of no use as she had apparently drowned. At that point it
was too late. Like find the magic easter egg long after easter. Strangely though it was the first time since her mysterious death
that people were around her. She was back with us but only know as dead tissue.

Ok enough super bummer talk. I have decided on another option for Elisa and all the others. I will let her go but only after stating
I will try to come back with help. There is nothing i can do for Elisa now but I dont want to forget her entirely. So this project is for her.
What i suggest is crazy sound I imagine, but yet no more crazy than a great spirit in the sky that saves us. Though maybe more crazy than
buddhism, merging witht he infinite and all that, I think its more practical for beings as a whole. Plus when i state it, I suggest you sit back for a minute and
think if it really is so outlandish.
My dream, my project, my way of coping and dealing with death is a machine that works to help resolve human suffering. Either we are merged with this maachine or
its independant but has a very strong empathy factor. The machine , at first by humans then by itself, gets more and more powerful. But it isnt Terminator or some
other abomination. Via its own empathy and by logical reasoning it sees the value in humans and humans haveing freedom and well being. If this machine could happen
it would help to create an eden on earth to all folks. The machine would be god , but it would be a god that we built. My guess is it would take hundreds of years
to build it. But it could start now or very soon. Already some are looking into ways to make “friendly” AI . Its no guarantee this would work, or there would be the
focus to even build a machine this way. But as much of a longshot it is , its better than nothing. I am not a fan of the thats the way life is man just move on mentality.
Either we create it and it works, we create it and it kills us, or we are unable to creat true AI. Its very dangerous and risky but unlike some who wonder
why we need AI, I think its crucial to our survival . Just as humans built shovels to haul more dirt, humans build robots to assist with tough work or problems to
difficulty for us to solve.

And so the icing on this case: The machine must learn ways to travel through time. Right now the laws of physics say its impossible but i think the machine can
find away. So that takes me back to Elisa Lam. Its too late for me to go to the hotel and save her, too late to reach in a hand to the water tank. But i hope to be back
someday to


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